Thankful

Now that it has been a little time since I started my new job, I've had a chance to reflect on the still-changing mosaic of my life. I feel like I'm beginning to put the difficult times of the past year behind me. I am now almost recovered from my surgery. One nasty scar on my tailbone/ buttocks, 3-4 doctors, a lot of worrying, and a lot of tried patience later, I think I'm close to ending this chapter of my life.

It hasn't all been pleasant, though. A couple of weeks after leaving my old job, I had an emotional breakdown over a weekend. I had been keeping so many feelings locked away. It hurt to experience what I'd been putting aside. A lot of sadness, mostly. I felt used by people, and that hurt a lot.

The good news, though, is I've realized more and more what kind of person I am. My friend Chris told me I'm a really great person before he left to return to Philadelphia. I was so stunned it was one of the last things he told me, I still remember it. As I have begun getting out socially and starting to have a life again, I've realized that he was right. I have something to contribute. I will make sure, though, to be thankful of what I have and not take it for granted. I have a feeling that won't be a problem, though.

It's been an amazing year so far. I think this year has some other great things in store for me. Life is 90% positioning, 10% execution, and I got a feeling I'm getting into position for something truly great to happen. I'll just have to wait and see what it is. For now, I will be happy with the way life is now and smile and embrace it.